by Taru Fisher on September 18, 2009
A few days ago I was driving back from picking up some flyers I had printed for my BNI meeting when I realized I had more important things to do. I had an “ah ha” moment about how I try to do everything and how it is physically and emotionally impossible. I had thought that before, on an intellectual level, but today I felt it in my entire being.
There is no way I can be successful in our fitness business, with my coaching/training business or in my relationship. Doing everything leaves no room for “being”, no room for creativity, no room for spending time with family and friends.
Last January, to cut expenses and stay in business, I took back the bookkeeping, let my VA go, and put my nose to the grindstone–OK, you youngsters out there may not know that metaphor, but just visualize it and see how much fun (NOT) that is. I stopped going to events that cost too much money, and began to shrink instead of grow.
In mid-August, I became ill with some unknown virus and was knocked flat on my back for a couple of weeks. Today, a month later, I am still exhausted and have no stamina, and often feel like I am “coming down with something”. This illness has also been a wake up call to STOP doing and return to being with what is; to find those places, people, events that bring joy and growth and go for it.
I feel a certain sense of freedom now, and much less stress as I let go of things that don’t serve my purpose, and add back activities that bring me joy.
I’m making FUN my middle name.
Tagged as:
anti-aging,
health,
presence
by Taru Fisher on April 1, 2008
My mind was racing – again – as I thought of the thirty odd things I had to do; all of them seemingly critical to our success. As I talked on the phone to my friend Patty, I whined about how much work I’d had to do on getting her courses up and running on our online scheduling system; I whined to my other friend, Carol, the organizer extraordinaire, about a visit from an old friend that had created more unfinished work for me to do. In retrospect, It seems like I whined to every unfortunate soul I came in contact with today – ick!
As I listened to myself, I began to feel uncomfortable at how un-resourceful I sounded, how I sounded like a freaking victim — which I definitely am not! I stopped in my tracks and looked at what work I was doing and realized how much I had accomplished and that much of it I actually enjoyed; I could even say it was fun and challenging.
I had allowed an old habit of not being present to what was actually happening sidetrack me from noticing what I was doing in that very moment, moving from one task to the next intuitively and gracefully and enjoying myself.
As I let my ideas and old habits drop away, I became still and saw the absolute perfection in what I had chosen to do in that moment. Past moments dropped away, future tripping stopped and I took my dog, Max, for a walk — I simply let go and followed the flow of what was right in each moment, and it was perfect and effortless and fun.
The older I get, the better I get at seeing the unconscious moments and moving out from them. I really like aging!
Tagged as:
dogs,
presence
